sometimes things happen and they remind you of things that used to happen and you’re so scared that the safest place is in a chair by a hotel elevator with your hoodie on and your headphones in, playing bon iver.
i hate this. i hate everything about this. this weekend has been so hard and is only getting harder.
it’s normal to spend all day driving to/being at/driving home (five and a half hours for the trip back, since no one in southern california knows how to merge) and get home and work more, right? i need an “off” switch.
i don’t know the last time i was in a car for nine+ hours in one day. or the last time i didn’t have cell phone signal for four hours therefore forcing me to look up and around and simply experience life.
i laughed a lot today. i laughed and i smiled and i witnessed two talented people work together in a car to make music. and i was on set with a group of brilliant and dedicated people working to create something that they believed in. i talked to an eight-year-old about our favorite rides at theme parks and about our pets who have died.
experiencing today was brilliant. the photographs don’t do it justice but the video playback somehow captures it perfectly.