i finally have an audience to ignore me.

that moment where you’re so lonely you’ve got to resist all urges to text someone you know you shouldn’t. because all you want is their attention. and you are not allowed to pull on anyone’s heartstrings.

my brother left. i dropped him at the airport and proceeded to cry the entire way home. i’m really homesick and i feel really alone. he’s one of my best friends. it’s so funny… he used to make me cry because he picked on me. now he makes me cry when he leaves. i’m lucky to have the family i have and as always, i hate being far from them. the cost of following my dreams is breaking my own heart. not seeing my family nearly as much as i should. i wish florida and california were a whole lot closer. 

my eyes are puffy from crying. 

goodnight, moon.